might as well die the window’s looking kinda good now

so just because i smoke and drink. my adoptive parents want to throw me out of the house. i’m already losing hope in christians at the moment. being christian myself. i’m very appalled at the twofacedness and the hypocrisy in my adoptive family. until today. i’ve never really felt happy in my adoptive home. its always about thier real daughter its always bout how she excels. how i fails. the only fucking thing keeping me sane and happy were my close friends. and they’ve all disappeared and found new people in the lives. i only have my kitten left. for now they’ve cut off my allowance.want to throw me out. might as well die anyway. i was never really happy in this home. always being compared to thier real daughter. always being scolded because i’m the “failure”. if i just die now. it would be better.